Anti-Perfectionism with Photography

From time to time I’ve tossed up pics on the ol’ blogwall here to see how they stick. Mainly they’ve been illustrative in nature, and I guess that’s probably due in large part to the fact that I got a degree in Journalism and spent a good deal of my time learning how to create pictures that tell a story.

Sometimes, however, you just want a picture that makes a statement all its own. I have no idea if I possess an ability in that regard, but I still take a stab at it, but I’ve not often posted those results up here on thatstom. I suppose largely that’s due to the fact that I’m a perfectionist, and usually look at them and go, “Uh…suck!” The enemy of the creative spirit is perfectionism, and I’m a victim of it as much as anyone else out there, and on occasion far more than is healthy. Perfectionism is responsible for that voice that says, “Nah, you suck. That sucks. You’re not good enough. You might be good, but other people are better. People will laugh at this stuff. Who are you to think that you might even possibly be capable of doing something decent. You’re wasting your time!”

Perfectionism, it’s one of the most powerful anti-creation forces in the universe. It’s what makes us not start projects, or start projects but never finish them. (Hey, if you never finish something, it’ll never be imperfect, right? What a great excuse not to do something!) I have often fallen victim to perfectionism, and for years I thought it was actually a good thing, that it helped me create stuff that was very exacting and of good quality. I didn’t realize how often, by comparison, it kept me from trying new things I really wanted to try, from experiencing the joy of a completed work, or of basking in some justly-deserved praise. Perfectionism kept me from creating, and, as such, kept me from the very healthy practice of being myself! This, in turn, creates all kinds of other unpleasant negative feelings. Overall the whole thing’s just a bad deal, and I’m pretty much done with living my life being governed by negative feelings such as those.

Taking action is an outstanding way of dealing a blow to the negativity of perfectionism. Me not sharing some of my photos? Not a good thing. A very simple way for me to take action is just to put a few of them up here without worrying if they’re perfect or not. I achieved a massive victory this evening of simply flipping through a few photos from the past couple of years and picking whatever ones caught my eye without obsessing (too much!) over how fantasti-wondeful they were. And now I’m putting them up here for all of you, my Awesome Readers/Viewers, to take a gander at.

The following are just a few random images that seemed to at least sort of show some promise. Critique, lambaste, judge, wrinkle your nose, smile, roll your eyes, whatever strikes your fancy. Hopefully there is a little enjoyment to be had from them. I don’t know where any of this work is headed, I just know that I’m supposed to be doing it. If I’m not sharing it, then it’s not doing me any good. I’m my own worst critic, and it’s a good idea to get some feedback on occasion, because sometimes I may be wrong about me. Now enjoy, and feed back!

Easter – Color and Design

Spent Easter with the fam as I am wont to do, and we performed the highly-anticipated ritual of coloring eggs. This was, needless to say, a perfect opportunity for everyone to indulge in a little creativity.

In my family the whole egg-coloring deal has held to tradition for decades. This means that we’re almost notoriously steadfast users of the Paas line of vinegar-scented chromatic madness. While there have been years where a crazy new idea came out (thinking of the year my older sister came up with some way of using food coloring and vinegar for these fabu starburst effects), we generally just stick with the tablets, some warm water, and then try and do everything we can to get the most out of the basic materials.

Here are some of this year’s results:

Easter egg colors

We had a bunch of fun this year, and mostly we let the kids do whatever they wanted to do, and the adults kind of goofed around with it. I recall in years past we had some pretty amazing results, but we were laid back about it this year. I’m probably the only one who was bothered about it, as I tend to take five times longer than anyone else in search of the “perfect” design, color, and style. (Yes, by now you are all familiar with how I can take something simple and overdo it. One year at a jack-o-lantern carving party at someone’s house I took as long to do one as everyone else did to do two of them. I’m sure my obsessiveness is entertaining. You’re welcome.)

Egg closeup

Getting a closeup on these, you can see better how we work with our limited resources. You have to get pretty creative (awesome!) with your execution when your coloring depends largely on dunking an oblong shell-coated embryo into a coffee mug full of tinted water. There’s the whole half-in-one-side/half-in-the-other-side, and then of course you can go for the “suicide” effet – putting the egg into every single color on the table, but after you’ve covered some of the obvious tricks you begin to want to reach for something a little different. Okay, maybe you don’t, but I do, and so does some of my family, apparently.

The first one on the right was done by putting the egg in multiple colors, then removing it, patting it dry in a few spots with a towel, and submerging it again. This thing looked fantastic when it was done. It had a crazy purple/gray/blue thing going on. My sister’s friend did it. I thought it looked almost like concrete. It was awesome.

Egg closeup

Above is a closeup of the ones I did. The foreground one was partly accident-related. Before I got hold of it it had been dropped. Didn’t matter, I love the way colors react around the damaged area. Check out how the blue has come out of the green at the cracks. Super sweet. Look further up toward the top and you can see a spiral that wraps around the egg. I got that by using a crayon and drawing on it, then submerging it.

The one with the wacky stripes on it came from putting the egg in read for a short time, then pulling it out and letting it dry a little, then wrapping rubber bands around it in random patterns and putting it back in, this time in purple. Rubber band ones are always fun.

The orange and yellow one was another crayon work. I put it in yellow and then scribbled all over it with crayon. When I put it back in I used red. I left it in a really long time, and the colors turned out nice and vibrant on that one.

And now for a little photo instruction. Check out these two photos:

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and:

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Have you sometimes wondered why your photos look like snapshots and not photos? A lot of it is in the lighting. The first (really cute!) photo was done next to a sunny window. You can see that the left half of the face has a nice, soft light to it. Skin tones look great, and it adds a lot of character to the photo.

The second photo looks fine, but the lighting is just…flat. It doesn’t do anything. This one was shot from a different angle, and the on-camera flash was used. Now, most on-camera flash is harsh and bright. Works great over a large variety of situations, and does a wonderful utilitarian job of getting illumination into all kinds of spots so you can see the subject in a dark room. However, it’s not the kindest of light. It’s flat, and it has no “color” so to speak. It makes pictures look like the one immediately above.

My little quick tip for you is if you’re trying to take a picture and make someone look as fab as possible, put them next to a window with some indirect lighting. This will soften wrinkles and round all kinds of unpleasant edges. Sunlight also has very nice color to it and won’t make the subject’s skin look pale or blue or any other number of undesirable shades.

My other nifty little tip is this: if you are using a point-and-click camera, and you do have to use the on-camera flash, but you really want to soften things up a bit, tape a piece of disposable tissue paper of the the flash. How many times you double it over is up to you, but try it out for fun some time and see how it looks. You’ll be amazed at how much nicer it appears.

They sell things like this for certain cameras. They’re called diffusers. You can’t get them for most pocket cameras, nor would you really want to mess with one, but in some situations it can be pretty cool, like if you’re at grandma’s 80th, and you want to get her with mom, and you want to take just a minute or two extra and get that quick shot where everyone will go “Aw…that looks great!” forever after.

When I was in college I couldn’t afford a diffuser for my zippy little mounted flash on my Nikon. I hated the harshness of the flash so much I ran around with a handkerchief rubber banded to the flash always. I never took it off, and I always preferred how that stuff turned out.

Hope you all enjoyed the recent holidays and that you had a chance to do some playing and have some creative fun.

Great Cut Out ’08 – Setting 61 Heads On Fire

First off, it’s Sunday just before 1pm, and I’m amazed that I can turn and look out the window into the front yard and all 61 of those dudes are STILL sitting on my lawn. I live in a great neighborhood. There have been at least a couple of parties on my block this weekend with various drunken zombies (and slutty policewomen and Little Red Riding Hoods) running around, and yet my little orange lawn ornaments remain untouched. Pretty cool.

I’ll see if I can’t keep this short. We’re here for the pictures, aren’t we? I got home Friday from work and immediately…took a short nap. I was exhausted from staying up late and carving the last three pumpkins the night before, plus cutting some wood for the display.

My friend Cat was up from Terre Haute on business, and she stopped in just moments after I woke up from my nap and we set about getting things in order. It took a while, because it’s pretty hard to pick up and carry more than one jack o’ lantern at a time, so we each made about fifteen trips off the porch to the front yard. We got them all set up, and then the little neighbor kids came by for candy, and the littlest ones (maybe three years old) started teetering and tottering between all of them picking off the lids when they saw Cat doing it. “I help!” one little boy kept saying. It was cute as all get-out, but I was really worried he was going to fall headfirst into a row of six or eight of them. His dad rescued him and the gourds before damage was done.

After about an hour we had them all set up and the candles were installed. Here’s a little tip for those of you contemplating such an undertaking: get some of those long-nosed butane lighters. Funks was a genius and a life-saver last year when he showed up with two that he’d purchased just because, well, I guess he thinks a lot further ahead than I do. Those things saved us probably twenty minutes of matches, burned fingers, and lots of cussing.

Finally, all 61 were lit, and we got the lids put back on, stepped back, and, well, I’ll let the pics tell the rest of the story. (all clickable)

61 Jack O\' Lanterns!

A blaze of Halloween glory!

This one is leering. Always good to have some leering on Halloween.


My friend Tina did the one on the left, and Meg did the one on the right.

This is one of mine. I’m a fan of big eyes and large mouths. They show up really well in the dark.

I did this one, but I got very good advice from a couple of people on the teeth. I was going to carve them in reverse of how I did it here, but it looks much better this way. Thanks, guys!

This looks like an Ed Roth cartoon to me.

Tim P. did this one. It got a lot of compliments. Andrew told me that in the middle of this one there was an, “Oh no. I don’t know if I can pull this off” moment. Obviously he overcame his obstacles.

Joe’s wife Kathy did this one. She was the first person to ask for toothpicks. The detail was awesome.

Me without coffee.

Great capturing of expression here.

One of Tim P’s specialties is the winking eye. It’s becoming his trademark.

I absolutely love the eyes on this one. I never would have conceived this design myself. My buddy Squee is responsible here.

Jem, my truly outrageous friend did this one. Much detail. Excellent curves on the eyes and eyebrows.

Squee did the one on the left with the three eyes. I once again envy her eyeball majesty. I don’t recall who did the one on the right, but it was really friggin’ creepy once it was lit.

Me with all my kids. Woohoo! Pulled it off again this year!

The morning after. You can get a good look at the finished project, and see some that I didn’t get shots of, or shot too poorly to post. Folks really were outstanding with their contributions of time and money (I didn’t pay for all these myself). Mom and pop were great for getting the pumpkins for me. My friends were wonderful for all their creative ideas, for putting time into it, for being enthusiastic, for being positive and having a good time, for helping me clean up(!!!!!), for showing up multiple times (especially if I goofed and misinformed them of the schedule of events somehow), and for just being the cool people they are.

Thanks again to all of you who participated! You contributed to an outstanding and fulfilling piece of fun and creativity. I do hope you will all return armed and ready next year. I think we’re gonna do ninety, so I’ll need the help!