perfectionism | Tom Harold

It’s amazing, and it’s finished!!!!

I love to be able to announce that I’ve completed another rolling ball sculpture! There are a lot of feelings that come with finishing a new work: gratitude, happiness, pride, relief, maybe a bit of loss, and I don’t know what all else. That gratitude thing, though, that’s a big one. When I was younger I was often so afraid the finished piece would not be “good enough,” not be perfect, that I never finished it. I didn’t even see my problem for what it was. I’d just get to a point where I was anywhere between 50% and maybe even 90% of the way done with something, and I’d put it down and never quite get back to it.

In my high school art class I got lower grades than I should have simply because a lot of my work was not complete when I handed it in. There were even plenty of projects – art and otherwise – that I never started or took part in because I was afraid my end result would not be good enough. I missed out on a lot that way. The fear of what I perceived as failure was powerful in those days. Eventually, however, I got sick and tired of things, and I desired a change badly enough that I started doing things differently.

That was several years ago, and I still have a good perspective on my old way of (not) doing things versus how I choose to live now. I’ve realized that my perceived ruinous flaws were just poor perspective. I still do the best I can at all times, but now I don’t create impossible standards for myself. Allowing myself to be human allows me to get more work done, which, in turn, allows me to improve even more. Every time I finish a piece of art now it becomes another fabulous and concrete way of physically telling myself, “You’re not living that way anymore. You’ve made changes, and look at how awesome this is!”

Tillander is a wonderful piece of art that stands as further proof that there are big benefits in casting aside a belief in perfectionism. I’m so happy to be scheduling delivery of this piece to my clients! They had the idea to put the air plant terrariums in the sculpture. I thought it was an absolutely kickass idea, so much so that I named the sculpture after the scientist who discovered the plant type. The terrarium idea wound up creating a number of challenges during construction, but I dealt with them one by one, perfectionism be damned, and I think the result really is fantastic. The green of the plants reaching out from inside the twisting, shiny metal really has a wonderful effect, and the round glass spheres of the terrariums complement the curving paths of the marbles perfectly.

Below I present a video of the completed piece. If this piece inspires some thoughts for a rolling ball sculpture that you’d like to commission for your home or office, please click here and send me a message. I’d love to hear your ideas!

From time to time I’ve tossed up pics on the ol’ blogwall here to see how they stick. Mainly they’ve been illustrative in nature, and I guess that’s probably due in large part to the fact that I got a degree in Journalism and spent a good deal of my time learning how to create pictures that tell a story.

Sometimes, however, you just want a picture that makes a statement all its own. I have no idea if I possess an ability in that regard, but I still take a stab at it, but I’ve not often posted those results up here on thatstom. I suppose largely that’s due to the fact that I’m a perfectionist, and usually look at them and go, “Uh…suck!” The enemy of the creative spirit is perfectionism, and I’m a victim of it as much as anyone else out there, and on occasion far more than is healthy. Perfectionism is responsible for that voice that says, “Nah, you suck. That sucks. You’re not good enough. You might be good, but other people are better. People will laugh at this stuff. Who are you to think that you might even possibly be capable of doing something decent. You’re wasting your time!”

Perfectionism, it’s one of the most powerful anti-creation forces in the universe. It’s what makes us not start projects, or start projects but never finish them. (Hey, if you never finish something, it’ll never be imperfect, right? What a great excuse not to do something!) I have often fallen victim to perfectionism, and for years I thought it was actually a good thing, that it helped me create stuff that was very exacting and of good quality. I didn’t realize how often, by comparison, it kept me from trying new things I really wanted to try, from experiencing the joy of a completed work, or of basking in some justly-deserved praise. Perfectionism kept me from creating, and, as such, kept me from the very healthy practice of being myself! This, in turn, creates all kinds of other unpleasant negative feelings. Overall the whole thing’s just a bad deal, and I’m pretty much done with living my life being governed by negative feelings such as those.

Taking action is an outstanding way of dealing a blow to the negativity of perfectionism. Me not sharing some of my photos? Not a good thing. A very simple way for me to take action is just to put a few of them up here without worrying if they’re perfect or not. I achieved a massive victory this evening of simply flipping through a few photos from the past couple of years and picking whatever ones caught my eye without obsessing (too much!) over how fantasti-wondeful they were. And now I’m putting them up here for all of you, my Awesome Readers/Viewers, to take a gander at.

The following are just a few random images that seemed to at least sort of show some promise. Critique, lambaste, judge, wrinkle your nose, smile, roll your eyes, whatever strikes your fancy. Hopefully there is a little enjoyment to be had from them. I don’t know where any of this work is headed, I just know that I’m supposed to be doing it. If I’m not sharing it, then it’s not doing me any good. I’m my own worst critic, and it’s a good idea to get some feedback on occasion, because sometimes I may be wrong about me. Now enjoy, and feed back!